Laguna

Ocean Avenue, 2am. Summer

Drinking vodka from coke bottles, new moon. 
Hanging out laced shoes from the lifeguard stand. 
Dark water beyond beached kelp, drunk lovers. 
Socks dripping, my pants soaked with salt and sand. 
Our faceless shadows laugh. It echoes West,
across the Pacific. Good memories
recounted between lost friends. Planning futures, 
reunions like this one, beneath the palm trees.
When the sun is gone, and you cannot see, 
the world's edge feels more beautiful.
Platonic love distracting, here I am 
forgetting to plan my own funeral. 

Go Home

Spanish moss curtains 
drape over branches of old oak trees and 
bald cypress knees peek out of the silt by the bayou. 
Palm fronds frolic beneath the canopy as 
cicadas warn of darker days
when the flood threatened to whisk them away.
This is where I come to preen my feathers, 
to pull the ticks from my flesh, 
while the coyotes' playful yelps lull me to sleep.
This is where I fledged. 
This is where I'll expire. 
Maybe this is my home after all, 
nestled in a bend of the Brazos.

The Hitchhiker

He said He was leaving home. 
He said, "Father Sky
has not been kind to me."
He said, "I do not 
send letters anymore,
I forgot the address."
He kept seashells 
in His pockets but 
never answered the worried
phone calls from Mother Ocean.
He had a map but 
did not know how to read it. 
He coughed up a broken compass. 
West was any direction
away from Kansas City. 
So, we drove.
We sat under redwood shadows
where Father Sky couldn't watch.
We made love to the light of the stars.
He said this made His Father angry.
With the sunrise the strong winds
chased us further away.
We visited the Mother Ocean.
He submerged himself, and let her
rinse salt through wounds
left by the Father Sky.
Once, it rained.
So we danced and we 
celebrated the Father Sky's grief.
I wondered if the water meant 
the Sky missed his son. He said,
"My Father cannot feel remorse."
The next day, the home I built in Him was empty. 
He left a letter with no return address. He said, 
"I'm going home."

How to Make a Cup of Coffee

STEP ONE: Get the fuck out of bed.

Smooth out the creases of your outline in the dirty upholstery.

STEP TWO: Shake off the dust.

Wring out your creaky bones.

STEP THREE: Welcome the stickiness of the hardwood beneath your clammy feet.

Remember how to move your muscles

Again.

STEP FOUR: Fill the water and grounds.

Stare out the kitchen window. Forget what realm you’re in.

Feel the weight of existence pulling your shoulders down.

Gravity is a greedy, bloodthirsty bitch.

And your posture fucking sucks.

STEP FIVE: Pour the coffee in a mug.

STEP SIX: For a minute, the familiar aroma will bring you back to reality.

For a minute,

You’ll feel kind of O.K.

STEP SEVEN: Take a sip and burn your tongue.

Whatever.

You don’t need to taste the bland world.

At least you can still feel something.

STEP EIGHT: Get back in bed.

Skip work.

Don’t shower. Repeat.

Sometimes it just doesn’t have a happy ending.

Short Poems

I’ve been trying to step out of my comfort zone by producing a mix of short and long poems. Just because it’s short doesn’t mean it’s bad. I need to get over it.

Buried

When my time comes,

let nothing separate my rotting flesh from soil.

Take what’s needed,

bury the rest,

and let me be forgotten.

Polycarpic

Some flowers bloom only once

Before their petals wither

And senesce.

How lucky we are

To bloom again and again.

hi welcome hello

I’ve been writing since second grade. Over my life I’ve filled so many journals with poetry, ideas, and unfinished stanzas. So I figure it’s about time I sat down and actually put a collection together. Here’s the thing though, I think everything I write is absolute sh*t. Please give me feedback, because maybe something I think is shit is actually pretty decent.

I’m welcoming and encouraging feedback. That’s the only reason I made this site, actually. I really want to know what other people think.

A couple things: 1. The theme that is currently nesting in my frontal cortex is very, very death-centric. I feel like I need to mention this just because someone along the line may not be comfortable with it. That’s chill and I get it. Thoughts of death occupy a lot of my time and by writing this current collection, I’m attempting to overcome my fear of it while simultaneously getting rid of my incessant desire to know what the fuck it feels like to die. (Does that make sense? I feel like it doesn’t but who cares.)

Anyway. Hi. HMU with feedback because I really need it. Thanks fam